Wednesday, February 2, 2022


"Die before you die. Don't wait for death to come and discover that you have never lived."

― Rumi

    Beauty and aesthetics.

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Ave formosissima,

Gemma pretiosa,

Ave, decus virginum,

Virgo gloriosa,

Ave, mundi luminar,

Ave, mundi rosa,

Et imperatrix mundi,

Venus generosa.



Omnia Sol temperat
purus et subtilis;
novo mundo reserat
facies Aprilis,
ad amorem properat
animus herilis,
et iocundis imperat
deus puerilis.

Rerum tanta novitas
in sollemni Vere
et Veris auctoritas
iubet nos gaudere;
vias praebet solitas;
et in tuo Vere
fides est et probitas
tuum retinere.

Ama me fideliter!
fidem meam nota;
de corde totaliter
et ex mente tota,
sum presentialiter
alens in remota;
quisquis amat taliter,
volvitur in rota—

Imperatoris Solis;
Imperatror cordis mei.
Tuum, imperatrix mundi.

C.I.L.C. XC, I.M.

Conscious self-annihilation is a concept that is often associated with spiritual or mystical practices in which an individual seeks to transcend their ego or personal identity in order to attain a state of higher consciousness or union with the divine Source. It is simultaneously the death of who we are, and the birth of who we 'are'.

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We owe our transitory existence to what we call Death. The profane must die to be reborn to the superior life which Initiation confers. If one does not die in this state of imperfection, then all progress of Initiation is denied. The great Secret is to know how.

Far from killing, Death revives: it dissociates what can no longer live, so that new Life may bloom from it.  What 'is' changes its aspect, but is never destroyed. We must recognize Death as the indispensable agent of progress. And we must seek it in a conscious self-annihilation.

While the idea of self-annihilation is often misunderstood and can sound extreme or negative, it does not necessarily mean the literal destruction of oneself. Rather, it involves letting go of the ego or sense of separate self, and merging with a greater, more expansive reality. This can be achieved through various actions such as self-reflection, mindfulness, cultivating compassion, practicing surrender, and serving others, as well as facilitated through spiritual practices like meditation, prayer, and contemplation.

The elimination of the ego involves a process of transcending this sense of self and embracing a deeper sense of interconnectedness with all things. Relinquishing the ego is a process that can take time and requires a deep commitment to spiritual growth and self-awareness. This process can involve practices intended to help practitioners cultivate a state of awareness and detachment from the ego.

The ego is a psychological concept that refers to the part of the human psyche that identifies oneself as an individual entity with unique thoughts, emotions, and experiences. It is the sense of self that we develop through our personal experiences, interactions with others, and social conditioning. The ego provides a sense of continuity and coherence to our experiences, and allows us to navigate the world around us.

However, the ego can also create a sense of separation and attachment to the material world, which can be a barrier to spiritual growth and enlightenment. It can lead us to prioritize our own self-interests and desires over the needs of others, and can prevent us from experiencing a deeper sense of connection and unity with all things.

By letting go of attachment to the ego, practitioners may be able to achieve a state of oneness or unity with the divine or with the universe as a whole. This state of unity is often associated with feelings of love, compassion, and a deeper sense of purpose and meaning.

In some spiritual traditions, the concept of self-annihilation is seen as a necessary step towards attaining spiritual enlightenment or union with God. This process involves a surrender of the self to a higher power or reality, and a recognition of the illusory nature of the ego or separate self.

However, self-annihilation can also be a challenging and potentially dangerous practice if not approached with proper guidance and discernment. It requires a deep level of trust and surrender, as well as a strong foundation of spiritual practice and ethical behavior. It is important to note that the elimination of the ego does not necessarily mean the complete eradication of individual identity or the loss of personal autonomy. Rather, it is a process of surrendering the ego and embracing a deeper sense of interconnectedness and unity with all beings.

More than anything, conscious self-annihilation is a process by which we reduce ourselves to our foremost identifiable energy within the Source. 

Heart of Nature, I rise. I belong to the World.

C.I.L.C. XC, I.M.

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